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hello my readers ;) too bored, thats why update blogger neh.

btw dahh 3 hari kuhh renggang dengan dea (bf). i dont know how to explain. bkn dea tak cntact aku, handphone aku tu still berbunyi. ade msg, ade mizcol dr dea. but aku yg buad dunno. hmm, sorry bie. kdg2 smpai bnyak kali dea col, aku buad dunno. pity him, dea tatao pape. ntah knape lahh dgn kuh ni. IMISSHIMSOMUCH. rendu sanad. rendu nk gurau gurau, rendu nk ketawa dgn dea, rendu nk lwn mengate. hmm, ntah lahh. mcm ni lahh if ktorg berjauhan. tp sbenarnye aku ade mrh dea bout something, and aku tabole nk explain kt cni.
to him : u already know why ryte? bnde yg I tasuke, u buad, mmg la I mrh. kalo u pon, if I buad bnde yg u tasuke, msty u mrh kann? so u fhm la sndri. u pon tau dh kot perangai I kann. so no need I nk ckp bnyakk. kalo u still ta fhm I, ntah la. I bkn la saje saje nk buad perangai. and I tanak kecohkan bnde bnde cmni. biar lah I saje yg skit haty or ape ape asalkan u puas haty dgn ape yg u buad. ntah lahh. I dh tatao nk ckp ape.

Memang betol org selalu ckp mse awal awal couple mmg indah kan. bagai dunia ni kita yg punya. tp lme lme rse tu makin hilang, sbb kita tak selalu semainye dgn kasih syg kann. yerr, sy rse kasih syg dr dea smakin bkurang, knape ekk? bkn la mksud sy yg sy ni bosan dgn dea, sikit pon tak terlintas mcm tuhh. atau dea yg dh bosan dgn sy? kdg kdg org ckp lelaki neh tak pndai nk tnjuk kasih syg tp sbenarnya dea mmg sygkn kite. tp yekea? kdg kdg lelaki neh pedulikan kite tp ta tnjuk caranye. tp yekea? hmm, but him before nehh always tnjukkan kasih syg dea at sy, and selalu care pasal sy. now its gone, sy dh tak rse sume tuhh. sy syg dea sanad, sy nk ktorg mcm dlu dlu. ini yg sy takot kalo couple. sy tkot bnde mcm ni jd uh. sy tatao nk settlekan mcm mne. depends saje lahh.

I'm not a good lover. Sorry for that, I mess up. I start fights. I get jealous easily. And I get mad always. But there are things I do love about myself. I don’t play. I give my all. Please back like the first I know you, I'm not really wanted you change and I hate it too much. Please be like my old hubby (: Don't think i'm stop thinking bout you, I always did it everytime. All of my times was waste think about youu, ONLY YOU.