Sunday, October 31, 2010

tak sengaje wehh :(

mlm ni mlm yg sepi, sunyi and bla bla. so atin tatao nk buad ape, sgt sgt bosan. soalan, "tak text bf kerr?" and my answers is "dea busy buad ape ntah, msg kejap jer td. huhu".

tibe2 perot meragam. uhhh, so saket. i dont know what happen. lately asek saket jea. takot lahh if anything will happen. huhu but let it lahh :) atin still okay. but td saket agak lme la. tahan and sabar jea lahh hukhuk :( menahan saket sorang2.

after dh okay. atin online kejap and singgah di belog nehh :) nk tido. tp belom ngantok meyh. hardoe! so saje la merajenkan diri nk melawat folder2 dlm laptop and nk delete ape yg patot. tp dgn TIDAK SENGAJE atin terbukak satu folder yg ade gmba si 'dea'. tahu kan sape mksud kuhh? OMG! how comes its still in my folder. maybe i copy and paste dr comp tnpe tgk pape dh. huh so sad la tgk gmba2 tuh. should i delete? yes fatin nazurah. you should delete all that in ur folder and also in ur mind. DELETE OKAY. but before tuh tgk puas2. hmm :( time tgk satu per satu gmba tuh setiap kenangan dtg and teringat sume yg pnah terjadi antara kami :( hanye kepada sesape yg pnah alami jer yg tau perasaan nehh. mmang sukar kan kite nk lupekan seseorang yg kite pnah syg, seseorang yg pnah hadir dlm idop kite. tp nape seseorang tuh mudah melupakn kite. terlalu mudah lupekan kite. kenape yerr? nape kite tak mudah nk lupakan seseorang tuuu?

atin tgk gmba atin tgh pegang bunga. huhu! i still remember dea bg bunga tuh dekat atin time dea pujok atin. its look so sweet. but bila pk alek sgt menyakitkan haty. then tgk gmba atin wearing sweater pink yg dea bg tuh. atin teringat bila dea dtg bg hadiah before atin g PLKN. hmm, so sad :( damn! tlg la. lupekan dea. untuk ape lg nk ingat.

tp saat atin ingatkan dea nape tade org yg dtg untuk tlg? wan, mne kmu? i need you :( help me to forget him. why u menyepi jer nehh? ape kmu buad? hardoe.

i hate all of this ! :(


just smile and go one with new life :)



lots of love ; atinSYGG ^^

Saturday, October 30, 2010

new life maybe ^^ ahaks (!)

Today is a bored day! haha. tp atin still enjoy my life. its normal la. takkan everyday nk happy n fun rite? am i rite? ahaks :) today spend time kt umah with dearest friend (ayu and eyra) but at evening eyra back to her home, takpe larr! umah dea dekat. umah kitorang jauh meyh. kan ayu kan? huhu :( dush! dh la miss my family. but sokay next week atin dh nk balik. kitorang dpt cuti sempena DEEPAVALI. hee! so atin dgn ayu je lar kt bilik. even ade roomates laen, ktorang tak bpe 'ngam' sgt ouh. atin dgn ayu just lyn game, facebook, myspace and so on. nk bg ilang bosan. dh tatao nk buad ape dh ni. bosan tahap maksimum. haha :)

After that texting with my hubby kejap. tu pon kejap je larr. huhu ntah ape dea nk buad. biar lah :) then atin plak nk lyn belog jap. merapu kt cni. haha :))

Oh yah punye la cite panjang lupe plak nk cite from the tittle. actually i love my life rite now. gaya atin, dri atin n sume lahh tntang dri atin. but my bie say i more sweet if wearing 'tudung'. woahh, the 1st bf, the 1st one yg jd bf i yg tego mcm tuh. OMG! mmang dea tego for kebaikan lahh. tp atin not ready lg lorhh. even nk brubah pon biar lah dr keikhlasan bkn paksaan. cewahhh! tp betol lah kan? ape pendapat korang yerk? hmm, niat kt aty neh ade lah jgak teringin nk pakai tudung. actually dh lme pon dea tego pasal nehh. tp atin yg tak amek port.

Untill one day tuh. atin teringin nk waering tudung. time tuh nk koa with my friend lahh. so starting pd tuh atin try untuk pakai tudung. but tatao la tahan lme mne. nme pon 'percubaan'. hee nk tgk takk? wait yah. i will show it :)



Hey you, how? okay tak? mmg la slalu pkai tudung mse pegy kolej. tp hari2 biase tak pnah pkai pon. this la the 1st time koa pkai tudung. wewittt. MOHD RIDZUAN! you should proud. haha. i change my self just because of you. actually i ikhlas lorhh. not really on him :)

After a few days, i and mmbe2 planning nk kne kan mmbe coz birthday dea. mse tuh 28/10/2010. mmang syok giler wehh. not really big wishes but big suprised. haha! so funny. mlm tuh yg join i, my hubby, ayu, eyra, annie, azmil, dev. and the birthday boy name is dhikri. kesian dea ohh kitorang kne kan dea. 1st thing ktorang amek dea punye handset. haa, muke moody giler mse kt kolej pg tuh. ktorang celebrate time mlm. when dh kitorang sume dh kumpul. my hubby call dea konon2 ade kes gado larr, so funny. dea pon dtg la dgn muke cuak. haha! then ktorang rmai2 kasi tepung sme dea. sume mlm tuh kne dgn tepung. putih jea msing2. paling terok kne bezday boy la. after that ktorg pegy mkn. mse tgh mkn ayu pon kasi la hadiah kt dhikri. dlm hadiah tu ktorg letak handset dea. haha! after dea opened it. muke teros happy giler kot. ehem3, so funny dgn keadaan cm tuh (putih tepung) pegy mkn. pape pon ktorang enjoy. but sorry no picture nk upload here. punya sakan celebrate smpai tak snap photo. but just have a photo with my hubby before kne tepung, haha. here is it :)



My friends say ktorang pasangan comel, haha. comel kea pon? agaga no komen. but im happy with him. so nothing nk story. later2 i will uptodate :)


ape2 pon i nk say I LOVE YOU MOHD RIDZUAN, haha



lots of love ; atinSYGG ;)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I LOVE YOU LAHH ;)

today I happy sangat2. thats was my mood, aha :)

At the morning my chenta sygg suda call meyh, awal sehh. I pon maseh kt atas katil. terjage pon sbb dea kejotkan. his got something to do thats why bngun awal. haha :) so on call jap dgn dea. after dh abes borakk. I bngun lahh dr tido then I pick up the towel and go to mndi mndi lahh :)

after dh settle kan diri and bsuh bju. I mencari mkn lahh. menikmati mkn jap dgn my roomates. smbil mkn2 smbil borak. ayu pon story mcm2 lahh dgn I. suke suke!

then kitorang lepak kt bilik jerr, buad assignment yg tak siap2 lg :)


**before this story




Now Im happy with him. today (23 Oktober 2010) is our second month anniversary. thats why Im happy. haha! Even tak dpt celebrate together. I dont mind because no matter what dea milik sy and sy milik dea, heee. lg pon dea ade hal so dea pulang rumah dea at Taiping. Actually dea ade ajak I, but I tanak lorhh. Maluuuu :) ktorg still new lorh so slowly. nnty2 smpai jgak I kt umah dea tu. and him also. smpai mse nye nnty dea akan meet my famly. but before dea gerak alek taiping smlm dea smpat lg dtg meet I at hostel, hee! So borak2 kejap dgn dea. after that dea pon gerak lorhh. Oh my dear I will miss you a lot. Mlm smlm tak msg dgn dea pon coz I think maybe dea letih kot. Sokay my dear, I fham. At 12 o clock I texting him. Wish for our second month anniversary. haha! And dea reply say something, hee :)


to him :

I love you today
I love you tomorrow
Put it together
I love you forever
Happy Anniversary for second month my hubby. Thanks for being with me. I want to be with you forever. Its just a small wish :)
No matter what happen ur mine and im urs :)
ILOVEYOUSOMUCH :)


lots of love ; atinSYGG :)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

runsing, maken bertambah :(

hari ni atin g kolej seperti biase, tp rase mcm tak best jer. smlm atin tido lewat coz settle problem dgn wan. ingatkan dh okay. tp tak lg kot. smpai kolej msing2 muka tak happy. tp still dk bedua, pegy mne bedua. but i can feel yg tak mcm hari2 lainn. huhu. mungkin sume neh salah atin jgak.

smlm slepas dpt cite sal F dh kawen. atin teros spontan btuka mood. tatao lahh nape. wan tnye atin still ade pasaan kt fitry kea smpai sdeh sgt. atin ase atin dh tade pasaan kt fitry lg. pasaan atin sume dh btuka untuk wan sorg saje. atin pon tatao nape atin bole down mood cm tuh. mmang susa nk cite coz atin jea yg rase. so atin diamkan dri jer. tanak cite lbeh2. nnty ade yg kecik aty lg. tp sangkaan atin salah. lg atin diamkan dri lg org tu jauhkan dri dr atin, so sad!

pd mula awal pg td bole dikatakan okay skit lahh. tp mse dlm class physiology atin rase wan mula jauhkan dri dr atin. nape? sbb atin story kt hasni saje kea? OMG! im so sorry. mmang betol atin cite kt hasni pasal F. tp wan slah fham. atin cite dgn hasni melalui surat, so wan pk atin lepaskan geram n tulis pasal pasaan atin kt kertas tuh and tanak kongsi dgn dea. kamu salah syg. atin tak buad cm tuh, atin just story to hasni only.

afta pd tuh dea ta ckp pape dgn atin. OMG! cmne nehh? time nk balik ktowg still jln sme2 g tmpat nk tnggu bas. tp sorg pon tak ckp pape. diamkan diri cm tuh jea. mse dlm bas i try to text him and say sorry. and he say sokay! thats all. atin tahu dea terasa dgn sikap atin nehh. tp ape bole buad bnde dh jd pon. atin takot, takot untuk cite kt dea. mungkin pasal pasaan atin neh. nnty bole buad dea skit aty. wlaupun dea still ckp takpe, takpe, takpe. tp hatynye? lain. i know.

salah atin. salah atin. d sbbkan hal atin ingat pasal F. atin dgn wan jd cm nehh. atin tanak mcm nehh. atin rendukan gurauan wan, gelak tawa wan. tp hari nehh atin ta dpt sume tuh. atin just dpt tgk muka dea yg not in gud mood. atin yg buad dea jd cm tuh. atin mmang tak pndai jge aty dea. hmm :( dea still pk atin merahsiakan something dr dea, tp takde pon. adohyae! cmne atin nk cyekan dea? dea ckp atin tak cyekan kesetiaan dea untuk cite sume msalah kt dea. bkn mcm tuhh. atin tatao nk ckp cmne lg.

mlm neh dea tak text atin. and lastly atin text dea. and dea reply but tak mcm slalu. hmm :(

to him : b, tlg la jgn cm nehh. owg tanak hal tuh relation kte jd cm nehh. bkn owg tak cye b. tp seyesly owg tatao nk cite cmne. plzz :( owg hargai b. owg nk b slalu dgn owg. tp maybe mse owg tgh sdeh tuh owg terabaikan b. owg mnta maaf sgt2 b. owg jnji takkan buad cm neh lg. owg hnye ade b sorg jea, tade owg laen lg dlm haty neh. tp psal F tuh. kita abaikan jea. owg hrap dea bahagia dgn idop dea. and skunk owg nk bahagiakan b jea. dea just mse lalu owg jea b. maaf la owg still ingat dea, and b pon ckp b fham kan yg tuh. thanks la sbb fham. mulai skunk owg akan cuba lupakan sume hal dea, knangan owg dgn dea, owg akan buang dea dr idop owg. owg akan ingat b sorg jea. maafkan owg yer b? maafkan owg dh buad hal mcm neh. maafkan owg dh sakitkan aty b. maafkan owg dh buad b terasa dgn sikap owg. kdg2 owg lalai b. b, b bkn owg asing bg owg. b yg paling special untuk owg. mulai skunk kalo ade msalah owg akan cite kt b. tlg jgn salah fhm dgn owg okay? owg tatao cmne nk bg b cye owg. mmang owg dh tade pape pasaan kt F tuh lg. salah owg b. salah owg kite jd cm nehh :(

the end *

mohammad ridzuan :

>i love you bie.
>i miss you bie.
>i need you bie.
>i want you always with me.
>i dont know what to do if you're not with me.
>I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING DAMN MUCH MY DEAR, MOHAMMAD RIDZUAN.
>only you in my heart.



lots of love ; atinSYGG.

aku harap dea gembira dgn hidop dea skunk.

ups, dh lme kot tak update blog, hee :)

bermula pulak kisah nye yer.

berdasarkan tajok? ini berkenaan dgn someone la. i hope he happy with his life now.

smlm atin online dgn sorg mmbe dak langkawi. chat mcm2 la kt fb. tnye itu dan ini. then tibe2 jea nk tnye sal si F tuh. OMG! i got a news, maybe bad maybe gud. huhu. i dont know la. mmbe atin btao yg dea suda berkahwen, wahh! sngguh cpt. pape pon atin hrap dea bahagea dgn life dea.

atin sedeh kea? sikit lahh. atin dh ade wan. buad ape nk pk psal F lg kann. hee. i dh ckop btuah ade dea yg slalu care psal atin. thanks bie :)

later story. not in gud mood :)


lotsoflove ; atinSYGG ^^

Saturday, October 2, 2010

hujung minggu di penang saje :)

Minggu neh dea alek taiping bcoz ktorg dpt cuti 3 hari. hoorayy! then pg jumaat i planning nk overnite dgn mmbe2 meyh. so he call me btao dea n mmbe2 kolej pegy penang. so i dgn mmbe2 i pon plan nk overnite tp tatao nk g mne, so lastly saje nk ikot diorg pegy penang.

Jumaat mlm tuh boyfie mmbe i dtg amek ktorg. i, eyra and hasni. so ktorg gerak g penang. mmang best. mse dlm keta otw nk g penang ktorg borak2, mkn2, ketawa2, dnga lagu kuat2. haha! mmang best wehh. btw thanks to AM bcoz bwa ktorg g penang.

Otw ke sne smpat lg i dgn wan btekak, huhu. pd mulanya nk sakat dea saje tgk2 dea take seyez pulak, ups! sorry bie. hehe

Smpai penang hmpir kul 12 so i text my bie yg i dh smpai penang and nk pegy lepak at PDG KOTA. he said tnggu at sne nnty dea dtg la. i and mmbe2 pegy uh mkn at pdg kota tuh. coz ta mkn lg mse gerak dr epoh. ktorg pon order la charkuewteaw. pergh mcm sedap. lastly rase2 eww ta sedap langsung. ktowg tnggal cm tuh jerr, merugikan! haha

afta that i n mmbe2 jln nk g lepak at tepi laut tuh then my bie col. dea dh smpai. oke then :)
ups, bla dh smpai msing2 buad hal msing2. lupe plak tgh msam muka. huh! smpat lg :)

then i text msg kt dea yg tgh lepak dgn mmbe2 dea tuh. i ckp if tanak dtg suda. konon2 merajuk. ahakz! then dea n azmil dtg la at i n hasni. eyra n am suda pegy dating lahh. mse tuh sunyi jerr ta ckp pape. adohyae! nk tergelak tp tak jd. buad lawak tol. afta that hujan mula nk trun. spoil betol la. lastly ckp jgak i dgn dea, haha. lme mne sgt la nk msam muka. grrr

ktorg pegy gurney pulak. naseb sne tak hujan. mse tuh dh kul 3 pg kot, ahaks! lepak situ jap. dating2, haha!

then ktorg g mc'd plak. lapa kot! dekat jer. so jln la rmai2. afta dh mkn jln alek kt tmpat park keta. relek2 japp. 5.30 maybe msing2 gerak alek lorhh. huhu! tak lme pon. but pity him ngantok2 terpkse drive alek.

ktorg plak smpae epoh lbeh kurang kul 7 lbeh gak la. memandangkan maseh awal. segan pulak nk msok ostel. so ktorg pegy tmn polo jap. lepak2 sne. kul 8.20 cm tuh ktorg g anta hasni kt umah aunty dea then ktorg pun pulang ostel. huhu

smpae jer ostel teros flying atas katil, haha! ngantok gile. bgn pun lewat td, ahaks! tido puas2. afta bngun eyra pulak siap2 nk koa dgn am. so i lepak kt umah with kakak2. haha! so i dont know what to do. i pon online lah kejap then usha2 belog nehh dan merapu ape yg patot.

so i nk texting with my bie pulakk. see yah! tata :)


lots of love ; atinSYGG :)