runsing, maken bertambah :(

hari ni atin g kolej seperti biase, tp rase mcm tak best jer. smlm atin tido lewat coz settle problem dgn wan. ingatkan dh okay. tp tak lg kot. smpai kolej msing2 muka tak happy. tp still dk bedua, pegy mne bedua. but i can feel yg tak mcm hari2 lainn. huhu. mungkin sume neh salah atin jgak.

smlm slepas dpt cite sal F dh kawen. atin teros spontan btuka mood. tatao lahh nape. wan tnye atin still ade pasaan kt fitry kea smpai sdeh sgt. atin ase atin dh tade pasaan kt fitry lg. pasaan atin sume dh btuka untuk wan sorg saje. atin pon tatao nape atin bole down mood cm tuh. mmang susa nk cite coz atin jea yg rase. so atin diamkan dri jer. tanak cite lbeh2. nnty ade yg kecik aty lg. tp sangkaan atin salah. lg atin diamkan dri lg org tu jauhkan dri dr atin, so sad!

pd mula awal pg td bole dikatakan okay skit lahh. tp mse dlm class physiology atin rase wan mula jauhkan dri dr atin. nape? sbb atin story kt hasni saje kea? OMG! im so sorry. mmang betol atin cite kt hasni pasal F. tp wan slah fham. atin cite dgn hasni melalui surat, so wan pk atin lepaskan geram n tulis pasal pasaan atin kt kertas tuh and tanak kongsi dgn dea. kamu salah syg. atin tak buad cm tuh, atin just story to hasni only.

afta pd tuh dea ta ckp pape dgn atin. OMG! cmne nehh? time nk balik ktowg still jln sme2 g tmpat nk tnggu bas. tp sorg pon tak ckp pape. diamkan diri cm tuh jea. mse dlm bas i try to text him and say sorry. and he say sokay! thats all. atin tahu dea terasa dgn sikap atin nehh. tp ape bole buad bnde dh jd pon. atin takot, takot untuk cite kt dea. mungkin pasal pasaan atin neh. nnty bole buad dea skit aty. wlaupun dea still ckp takpe, takpe, takpe. tp hatynye? lain. i know.

salah atin. salah atin. d sbbkan hal atin ingat pasal F. atin dgn wan jd cm nehh. atin tanak mcm nehh. atin rendukan gurauan wan, gelak tawa wan. tp hari nehh atin ta dpt sume tuh. atin just dpt tgk muka dea yg not in gud mood. atin yg buad dea jd cm tuh. atin mmang tak pndai jge aty dea. hmm :( dea still pk atin merahsiakan something dr dea, tp takde pon. adohyae! cmne atin nk cyekan dea? dea ckp atin tak cyekan kesetiaan dea untuk cite sume msalah kt dea. bkn mcm tuhh. atin tatao nk ckp cmne lg.

mlm neh dea tak text atin. and lastly atin text dea. and dea reply but tak mcm slalu. hmm :(

to him : b, tlg la jgn cm nehh. owg tanak hal tuh relation kte jd cm nehh. bkn owg tak cye b. tp seyesly owg tatao nk cite cmne. plzz :( owg hargai b. owg nk b slalu dgn owg. tp maybe mse owg tgh sdeh tuh owg terabaikan b. owg mnta maaf sgt2 b. owg jnji takkan buad cm neh lg. owg hnye ade b sorg jea, tade owg laen lg dlm haty neh. tp psal F tuh. kita abaikan jea. owg hrap dea bahagia dgn idop dea. and skunk owg nk bahagiakan b jea. dea just mse lalu owg jea b. maaf la owg still ingat dea, and b pon ckp b fham kan yg tuh. thanks la sbb fham. mulai skunk owg akan cuba lupakan sume hal dea, knangan owg dgn dea, owg akan buang dea dr idop owg. owg akan ingat b sorg jea. maafkan owg yer b? maafkan owg dh buad hal mcm neh. maafkan owg dh sakitkan aty b. maafkan owg dh buad b terasa dgn sikap owg. kdg2 owg lalai b. b, b bkn owg asing bg owg. b yg paling special untuk owg. mulai skunk kalo ade msalah owg akan cite kt b. tlg jgn salah fhm dgn owg okay? owg tatao cmne nk bg b cye owg. mmang owg dh tade pape pasaan kt F tuh lg. salah owg b. salah owg kite jd cm nehh :(

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mohammad ridzuan :

>i love you bie.
>i miss you bie.
>i need you bie.
>i want you always with me.
>i dont know what to do if you're not with me.
>I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING DAMN MUCH MY DEAR, MOHAMMAD RIDZUAN.
>only you in my heart.



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